Where I've been...

The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full.
John 10:10

This is where I've been lately.

I'll explain.

It has been awhile since my last blog post.


I have been unfocused...

wrestling with doubt...

anger...

apathy....


Things from my past...

letting myself get overwhelmed...

and letting the time I spent with God get replaced with other things...

convenience...

work...

even playing guitar....


The part about playing the guitar has been especially tough to acknowledge...

especially since a lot of my guitar playing has happened in response to God through worship.

What happened?


Slowly...

subtly...

the joy...

hope...

dreams...

and relationship I had with God were ebbing away.


I found myself letting my everyday become mundane...

letting the amazing things that God has done through Sarala become distant memories...

and I didn't talk to God anymore.


Which brings me to the second part of John 10:10.

I was reminded lately that God is a God of restoration...

hope...

peace...

and grace.


I had to remember to just be.

I was too busy doing.

The things I was doing were good things...

but even good things can get in the way of seeking God.


I had to remember the things I once knew:

to be a child of the Father...

to be a husband to Crystal...

to be a father to Sarala...

and...

to just be.


So...

this is where I've been.

It seems like I had to refocus...

and as a result...

everything else has begun to fall back into place.


Trust in the truth of the passage above....

The words of Jesus....